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Mar. 28th, 2014 07:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
She renames her mother ‘Kore’ on the paperwork, never realizing the irony. ’Patient’s Family History’ is the fourth section down—personalinsuranceandemployersymptomsanddifficulties—and it’s not optional.
But Mar’i was not raised on the Greek. She was barely, hardly, minutely raised on the Grimm. Her stories were set on planets far away with kingdoms and warriors and long lineages. Sometimes they were tinged with Earthbound dynasties and struggles against foreign conquerers, but never gods who loved humans and children stolen into the dark depths.
They covered the walls of the reception area in pictures of women holding shealths of grain and cornucopias of fruit across their stomachs. It’s thinly veiled optimism in a room turned to precisely 68.5 degrees, frigid and barren besides the sprinkling of wrinkled entertainment and fashion magazines. No Parenting, no Baby Talk. No false hopes.
Mar’i is immediately glad she filled the new patient registration forms out on her own time, because the idea of sitting here, in this room clean of expectations and dreams, she knows she wouldn’t have been able to answer the questions. It had been hard enough to do in an apartment heated to exactly 78 degrees, glancing over at the figure snoring on her couch.
11. Do you wish to procreate in the next ten years? YES/NO
She’s glad they removed that layer of community from it. Because it’s not because he mentioned it or she’d discussed it with his friend. It’s not because he’s there at all. It’s because her daily routine has had, like many other women’s, to twist and work around a capital-letter word, a two-pink-line scare, a pill every night at 10:30 and a condom in every bag. It’s because it’s a thing she wants from her life, even if it’s not with him, even if it’s not for years. It’s because it’s her body and her genetics and if it’s not going to work, she deserves to know.
The receptionist is barely a day over twenty, and Mar’i watches from her seat on the other side of the room as she thumbs through the paperwork. Marie Gray’s file, with her health insurance from a nice, normal agency, and her medical history files from a completely nice, normal life. Marie Gray is nice, normal, and vaguely exotic-looking. A little tall for a woman. A funny bracelet on her wrist and a fuzz that surrounds her form if you spot her out of peripheral and are paying just enough attention. A face utterly forgettable, a face that will slide off with the hologram the moment the fertility specialist’s confidentiality is guaranteed.
"You’ve got your primary physician listed as your emergency contact. Did you want to list someone else?"
Marie Gray, daughter of Kore, shakes her head.
"The examination procedure may involve a local anesthetic, and you’d have to stay with us until it wears off. It might be a few hours. Someone could take you home, so you don’t have to wait."
Marie cycles idly through her phone’s contacts; Mar’i chides herself for even considering bothering anyone else with it.
"No," she shakes her head a second time, "no, I’ll just wait."
But Mar’i was not raised on the Greek. She was barely, hardly, minutely raised on the Grimm. Her stories were set on planets far away with kingdoms and warriors and long lineages. Sometimes they were tinged with Earthbound dynasties and struggles against foreign conquerers, but never gods who loved humans and children stolen into the dark depths.
They covered the walls of the reception area in pictures of women holding shealths of grain and cornucopias of fruit across their stomachs. It’s thinly veiled optimism in a room turned to precisely 68.5 degrees, frigid and barren besides the sprinkling of wrinkled entertainment and fashion magazines. No Parenting, no Baby Talk. No false hopes.
Mar’i is immediately glad she filled the new patient registration forms out on her own time, because the idea of sitting here, in this room clean of expectations and dreams, she knows she wouldn’t have been able to answer the questions. It had been hard enough to do in an apartment heated to exactly 78 degrees, glancing over at the figure snoring on her couch.
11. Do you wish to procreate in the next ten years? YES/NO
She’s glad they removed that layer of community from it. Because it’s not because he mentioned it or she’d discussed it with his friend. It’s not because he’s there at all. It’s because her daily routine has had, like many other women’s, to twist and work around a capital-letter word, a two-pink-line scare, a pill every night at 10:30 and a condom in every bag. It’s because it’s a thing she wants from her life, even if it’s not with him, even if it’s not for years. It’s because it’s her body and her genetics and if it’s not going to work, she deserves to know.
The receptionist is barely a day over twenty, and Mar’i watches from her seat on the other side of the room as she thumbs through the paperwork. Marie Gray’s file, with her health insurance from a nice, normal agency, and her medical history files from a completely nice, normal life. Marie Gray is nice, normal, and vaguely exotic-looking. A little tall for a woman. A funny bracelet on her wrist and a fuzz that surrounds her form if you spot her out of peripheral and are paying just enough attention. A face utterly forgettable, a face that will slide off with the hologram the moment the fertility specialist’s confidentiality is guaranteed.
"You’ve got your primary physician listed as your emergency contact. Did you want to list someone else?"
Marie Gray, daughter of Kore, shakes her head.
"The examination procedure may involve a local anesthetic, and you’d have to stay with us until it wears off. It might be a few hours. Someone could take you home, so you don’t have to wait."
Marie cycles idly through her phone’s contacts; Mar’i chides herself for even considering bothering anyone else with it.
"No," she shakes her head a second time, "no, I’ll just wait."