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thejusticelounge2012-09-16 10:27 am
bossymarmalade) wrote in thejusticelounge2012-09-16 10:27 am
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red tides
“Hasn’t he ever made he so angry that you wanted to kill him?” Cheshire asks, circling Roy like a hawk, egging him on as he stands there, expressionless, lifeless in front of her.
“You’ve had so many chances before. You could kill him Roy, kill with your own two hands. Haven’t you always wanted to do it? Wanted to jus—”
“No.”
And that throws Cheshire off. She blinks, staring in disbelief.
She had him.
She had him! The plan can’t crash like this. Not like this. Cursing under her breath she shakes her head, quickly rounding on his motionless body. He’s just standing there, defying her and she snaps at him, shaking him with a threatening throttle.
“Take that back!” She demands. “Say yes.”
It won’t work unless he says yes. And Roy blinks, slow and breathes just like normal, unaffected.
“No.”
“You hate him! You will kill him!” She doesn’t want to use the machines but she will if she has to and Roy just looks down at her, the light reflecting dark grey orbs at her as he reaches a hand out, stroking the black strands with a slow shake of his head.
“No…”
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Roy’s only twelve when he enters the contest and gets the attention of the Green Arrow. It’s the best day of his life and he couldn’t be happier.
Brave Bow hugs him tight and that’s the last he sees of his adoptive father.
Roy’s a little quieter on the ride home that Ollie tries to get him chipper with a crazy blend of ice cream from one of those expensive shops. Roy animated eats it and thanks Ollie a thousand times until his face is red.
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The first time Ollie trains him, Roy remembers waking up with aching limbs and a headache the size of Manhattan. Ollie doesn’t leave his side and Roy remembers laughing way too hard when Ollie tries to speak Dine to him.
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Roy scales a wall with such skill that it’s hard for Ollie to even believe that it’s only been a week since they started working on the job together. Roy talks a little more English now too and they get along in that really fun way that gets Ollie’s blood pumping. He wonders whatever stopped him from doing this earlier.
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It’s been a month since Roy’s seen Ollie last and he’s a little worried now because Ollie said he would only be a while with Hal to save the world. Roy pretends everything is okay though when Dick asks and he goes patrolling all by himself. He takes care of Star City while Dad’s out. Now if only she could take care of him…
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The first time he comes into contact with drugs, it’s a mistake. Who the fuck leaves an entire thing of cocaine on a table anyway? Really? Roy jumps down right onto it, the cocaine going airborne and he coughs a little, waving his hand to try and see. He shoots the guy in a trap arrow before licking his dusty, chapped lips. The curious thing that he is, tests it, thinking stupidly that it’s sugar or dust. When the tasteless air particles get into his system, he’s so wired for hours that Ollie doesn’t know what to do with him. Roy tells him it’s nothing and he’s just jumping with adrenaline.
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The second time he uses, it isn’t so innocent as the first.
Roy spirals after that.
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Ollie’s gone more than a hooker orgasms on Tuesdays. It’s always one thing or another and Roy wants out of the drugs, but they’re the only he has left now. The drugs pay attention to him. Being dosed makes him happy. Happier than when he is all alone. And he doesn’t want to stop. He doesn’t until he gets in so deep that he can’t climb out.
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When Ollie finds out, he beats Roy up. He doesn’t even have the strength to defend himself but the punch to the face is message enough that alright, yeah, dad I get it. You quit me. I’m so sorry, Roy whispers at Ollie’s retreating back.
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It takes forever for him to get clean. He’s so fucking scared when he meets Ollie’s face after all that time apart. He just wants Ollie to love him like a son again. He doesn’t want to lose another parent. He just keeps focusing on his curse and he shakes his head, faking a smile as Ollie brings him in close.
They joke and fight, fight so bloody much in shouting matches that it’s typical of them now. And this becomes their normal in a matter of weeks. Everything is just like before with his friends but now there’s new, spiteful emotions settling low in his stomach that he buries deep.
No one likes a pessimist.
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Roy’s been blacking out more than once this whole week and when he finally gets the guts to tell Ollie about it, tell him how scared he is that he’s losing himself to some relapse in the drugs, Roy wakes up in a mound of snow with a high fever and shivering his ass off. Jade picks him up, tells him that Ollie betrayed him. That he was shot out of the Watchtower from space and that his body hurts because he was torn apart by the breach in the atmosphere.
He asks her how he survived.
Jade lies, as she always does and Roy pretends to believe her.
When he’s well enough to move he tries to escape until Jade shouts some strange overriding code and his knees buckle.
In that moment, Roy knows something is wrong. Jade explains everything to him. She spills while she’s got him right where she wants him. He can’t move. Can’t call for help and Roy’s thoughts linger on Ollie. She tells him what he has to do, crouched in the snow.
Kill your father.
Roy refuses and the machines take over.
████████████He’s afraid.████████████
He’s moving without wanting to move and his mind is put in this place. It’s so dark. There’s nothing but raw emotions here and everything is such a sensory overload that he snaps out of it enough to hear the droning sound of Jade’s voice.
“You’re going to kill him.” She presents the Red Lantern Ring to him and Roy’s eyes flickering in and out of himself and the machines taking control of his body. The machines push him back and he stares in horror as he takes the ring.
“Kill him.”
No.
No…I don’—
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“You’ve had so many chances before. You could kill him Roy, kill with your own two hands. Haven’t you always wanted to do it? Wanted to jus—”
“No.”
And that throws Cheshire off. She blinks, staring in disbelief.
She had him.
She had him! The plan can’t crash like this. Not like this. Cursing under her breath she shakes her head, quickly rounding on his motionless body. He’s just standing there, defying her and she snaps at him, shaking him with a threatening throttle.
“Take that back!” She demands. “Say yes.”
It won’t work unless he says yes. And Roy blinks, slow and breathes just like normal, unaffected.
“No.”
“You hate him! You will kill him!” She doesn’t want to use the machines but she will if she has to and Roy just looks down at her, the light reflecting dark grey orbs at her as he reaches a hand out, stroking the black strands with a slow shake of his head.
“No…”
███████████████████████████████████████████████████████
Roy’s only twelve when he enters the contest and gets the attention of the Green Arrow. It’s the best day of his life and he couldn’t be happier.
Brave Bow hugs him tight and that’s the last he sees of his adoptive father.
Roy’s a little quieter on the ride home that Ollie tries to get him chipper with a crazy blend of ice cream from one of those expensive shops. Roy animated eats it and thanks Ollie a thousand times until his face is red.
██████████████████████████████████████████
The first time Ollie trains him, Roy remembers waking up with aching limbs and a headache the size of Manhattan. Ollie doesn’t leave his side and Roy remembers laughing way too hard when Ollie tries to speak Dine to him.
████████████████████████████████████
Roy scales a wall with such skill that it’s hard for Ollie to even believe that it’s only been a week since they started working on the job together. Roy talks a little more English now too and they get along in that really fun way that gets Ollie’s blood pumping. He wonders whatever stopped him from doing this earlier.
██████████████████████████████
It’s been a month since Roy’s seen Ollie last and he’s a little worried now because Ollie said he would only be a while with Hal to save the world. Roy pretends everything is okay though when Dick asks and he goes patrolling all by himself. He takes care of Star City while Dad’s out. Now if only she could take care of him…
████████████████████████
The first time he comes into contact with drugs, it’s a mistake. Who the fuck leaves an entire thing of cocaine on a table anyway? Really? Roy jumps down right onto it, the cocaine going airborne and he coughs a little, waving his hand to try and see. He shoots the guy in a trap arrow before licking his dusty, chapped lips. The curious thing that he is, tests it, thinking stupidly that it’s sugar or dust. When the tasteless air particles get into his system, he’s so wired for hours that Ollie doesn’t know what to do with him. Roy tells him it’s nothing and he’s just jumping with adrenaline.
██████████████████
The second time he uses, it isn’t so innocent as the first.
Roy spirals after that.
████████████
Ollie’s gone more than a hooker orgasms on Tuesdays. It’s always one thing or another and Roy wants out of the drugs, but they’re the only he has left now. The drugs pay attention to him. Being dosed makes him happy. Happier than when he is all alone. And he doesn’t want to stop. He doesn’t until he gets in so deep that he can’t climb out.
██████████
When Ollie finds out, he beats Roy up. He doesn’t even have the strength to defend himself but the punch to the face is message enough that alright, yeah, dad I get it. You quit me. I’m so sorry, Roy whispers at Ollie’s retreating back.
████████
It takes forever for him to get clean. He’s so fucking scared when he meets Ollie’s face after all that time apart. He just wants Ollie to love him like a son again. He doesn’t want to lose another parent. He just keeps focusing on his curse and he shakes his head, faking a smile as Ollie brings him in close.
They joke and fight, fight so bloody much in shouting matches that it’s typical of them now. And this becomes their normal in a matter of weeks. Everything is just like before with his friends but now there’s new, spiteful emotions settling low in his stomach that he buries deep.
No one likes a pessimist.
██████
Roy’s been blacking out more than once this whole week and when he finally gets the guts to tell Ollie about it, tell him how scared he is that he’s losing himself to some relapse in the drugs, Roy wakes up in a mound of snow with a high fever and shivering his ass off. Jade picks him up, tells him that Ollie betrayed him. That he was shot out of the Watchtower from space and that his body hurts because he was torn apart by the breach in the atmosphere.
He asks her how he survived.
Jade lies, as she always does and Roy pretends to believe her.
When he’s well enough to move he tries to escape until Jade shouts some strange overriding code and his knees buckle.
In that moment, Roy knows something is wrong. Jade explains everything to him. She spills while she’s got him right where she wants him. He can’t move. Can’t call for help and Roy’s thoughts linger on Ollie. She tells him what he has to do, crouched in the snow.
Kill your father.
Roy refuses and the machines take over.
████████████He’s afraid.████████████
He’s moving without wanting to move and his mind is put in this place. It’s so dark. There’s nothing but raw emotions here and everything is such a sensory overload that he snaps out of it enough to hear the droning sound of Jade’s voice.
“You’re going to kill him.” She presents the Red Lantern Ring to him and Roy’s eyes flickering in and out of himself and the machines taking control of his body. The machines push him back and he stares in horror as he takes the ring.
“Kill him.”
No.
No…I don’—
██He’s drowning.███████████
██████He can’t get out.██████████████████
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